Deeper Still

This has been the love song that keeps setting my heart and spirit free over and over.... WILL I GO DEEPER STILL.... even though others passively mock me and put down the desire and life that is deep in Him.... WILL I GO DEEPER STILL... even though I don't always understand.... WILL I GO DEEPER STILL... even though it requires everything in me to trust  WILL I GO DEEPER STILL... and turn my back on the corners of compromise... WILL I GO DEEPER STILL....and not get tangled up in fear... WILL I GO DEEPER STILL....so that He can prove He is enough.

There's a place inside of me
There's hunger for a change
I have tried to satisfy
I have tried to rearrange
Needing Him completely
I come ready for my fill
Is it then He asks of me
Will I go deeper still
Will I go deeper still

Listen, can you hear His voice
Hear Him calling, let all men rejoice
And leave the shallow place you're in
Come and meet Him if you will
He beckons and He speaks to us
Will we go deeper still

Deeper than the waters I have stood in for so long
Setting out to sea where I know the hand of God is strong
Leaving all the worries that I let keep me from going on
He troubles where I stand until I go deeper still

What He has for us
Is wrapped up in mysteries unknown
To the mortal mind
If we're willing to go deeper
Beyond what we can see
Then I know life awaits us abundantly

                                                                                      -By Ronnie Freeman

The Beauty of The Lord

I am almost at a loss for words as my hearts pounds and I reach for the Lords peace.

The anxiousness comes and goes as I enter to this place of letting go even more. I am ever thankful that it's a process.

We sit and cry, laugh, and talk of all the Lord has brought and what is to come.

As I have put together her transcript and she completes what has been a long season of schooling, she will graduate from this way of life this summer. She beams with excitement and floats around full of joy.

We have reflected on the years of schooling and all that was gained as well as the trials.

We share in the excitement at what seems to be a pivotal turning point and what will the Lord woo her heart into next.

She shares of the wonder of waiting and seeing what the Lord will fill her heart and life with.

I look her in the eyes and smile, anticipating the Lords awesome wonder for her her life.

It has been beautiful to see her reach for Jesus, the One in who she ultimately puts her trust.

This journey has been sweet even though it has had its challenges. I am thankful our journey continues, but as sisters in Jesus.

I find myself encouraging her to ask the Lord to enlighten the eyes of her heart for what the Lord has.

I want nothing more than to see her on the Lords ride throughout each and every day of her life. I pray her heart is forever captivated by the love of our sweet Jesus, and that the beauty of the Lord our God would be upon her and establish the work of her hands.

Thank you Lord for all You have done and all You are going to do.

A Refreshing Season

My heart is bursting with excitement and the freshness of a sweet new time in life.

With each new season of the heart it's as though the Lords unending grace overwhelms me in ways I would have never imagined on my own. It comes so timely after such a season of learning to let go of even more that I was not aware of that I was holding on to.

I absolutely love growing older.

What a precious Redeemer I serve that goes to such detail to bring delight to the everyday moments of  this life.

He is the source of anyday pleasure that arrives and how my heart overflows with thankfulness that He has even designed my life to be so enjoyable!

It takes me letting go and reaching to take His hand.

I scan the perimiter of this life and see His signature on all He has given from His heart.

What a gift. What a friend I have in Jesus.

So I take in the joy of this beautiful new season!

(This is late January in Texas for ya!)

A Thriving Garden

A thriving garden happens when one takes the responsibility to tend to the work that needs to be done.

Tilling the soil, landscaping it out, sowing the seed, watering, weeding, watering, weeding and clipping here and there, and the beautiful harvest will often depend on what we invested.

Likewise, children will not accidentally become wise and productive adults, emotionally healthy and stable, and live up to the heights of their potential.

Sadly my children will suffer immense brokenness if Gods design for the family is ignored.

I will not speak on the part of fatherhood, but I know that what I do as a mama will have eternal significance in one fashion or another. Proverbs 31 gives a full picture of the various specifics of my God-given assignment. Their is beauty and wisdom found in it.

Establishing a home in which the greatness of God and wholehearted devotion to Him is an investment I must make each and every day. Not just when I feel like it.

My common purpose is to glorify God in whatever the circumstances and boundaries or limitations that I may encounter.

Me and another mama who live out of town have commented to one another how we are often encouraged as we reflect on one anothers  choice to focus our priorities and time in light of our husband and children's lives. This is not always a natural instinctive choice, but through the crying out to God to help me stand strong in denying myself it is possible. Still yet there have been times I have resisted and failed. 

Most mamas have immense love and concern for their children, but many of us can refuse to accept home-based full-time mamahood. Doing things outside the home is fine as long as I am not tucking being a mama around the edges of MY interest and desire.

I e-mailed another mama blogger who stands strong on home-based motherhood and asked if she was faithful in that follow through. She replied stating that she only left the home when necessary because that is where she has established the right environment for them to grow and flourish. She has a dear friend who loves to be away from home almost all the time and she witnesses time and again how her home and family suffer dearly for it.

Being a wholehearted mama in today's society and culture is not without its challenges.

In order to have a thriving garden in my home, I must be committed to the job and not considered something I do on the side. I cannot have a divided heart. Always thinking about the next opportunity to escape my responsibilities. Many of my own lessons have been hard learned and failure a common companion in my beginning years of mothering 15 years ago.

Today I am thankful for the gift to sweetly and beautifully have the time to savor these vapor like moments.

Teaching them from infancy how to dance with The Father.

I treasure the gift of teaching the children how to share the gift of life with one another even though they may share different interests.

I desire for God to invade every moment of my life that I may not take any moment for granted.

I hold dear the gift of being able to nurture my children with my words, physical labor of quality investment, or songs to comfort.

I am thankful when God drowns out the desire to have life my own way and I can embrace the "right now" with my children.



I am ever truly thankful for the gift of being partnered with my husband in building a godly heritage.

The Heights of Motherhood

I often ponder in my heart what the next season of life will be like.

 Being that the Lord has chose to plant a seed of life deep within,

this season it is the morning craving of a freash fried farm egg, whole grain toast with old fashioned plum jam, and a couple slices of fried bacon.



The before bedtime craving is 2-3 warm baked spicy molasses cookies with a small glass of really cold milk.

Something I also enjoy is making homemade herbal remedies for the family.

We have had a bit of coughy stuff happening, so I cured a batch of cough syrup that consisted of wild cherry bark, honey, and lemon rind. So far so good!!!!

Little Selah has been such a delight.

 From day to day we are tickled at her new blossoms of personality.

The season of her being my nursling is ending and so our bonding will begin to mature and grow into a beautiful new way of life.



Daily my cry to the Lord is to help me grasp the heights of His plans for me,

to shape and fashion me in His likeness that the light of Christ may be seen today!